Wednesday, May 25, 2011

A Man Named Vengence



CURTAINS OPEN

SCENE [STAGE RIGHT]: The living room is dark and smokey.  There is not much of a decor to speak of; just a ram-shackled hodgepodge of old dusty photographs, out-dated furniture, discontinued knick-knacks, and a layer of grime from decades of tobacco smoke.  In fact, the smoke carries through the room just barely concealing the small kitchen beyond.  All the lights are out save for the television flickers bouncing off the walls and back-lighting the smoke clouds emanating from the other side of the room in regular intervals.  The couch is tattered and stained.  At one time it was plush and comfortable, but close to a half-century of use had eroded the fabric and flattened the stuffing.  An aluminum TV stand supports a half empty beer, a metal ashtray with a handful of butts, and an empty plastic plate where a frozen dinner had been recently consumed.
The television is tuned to the local news station where an anchor is reporting on a story of no particular importance.  The volume is barely audible anyhow.

BACKLIGHT ILLUMINATES A SILHOUETTE OF A MAN SITTING ON THE COUCH: A cherry glows brighter then fades.  Soon after the exhale of deeply inhaled final drag pours out of the same mouth.  The cigarette is then snubbed in the aforementioned ashtray.  The last half of the beer is quickly guzzled and the empty bottle placed back with a hard knock on the TV tray.  A satisfied belch and a grunt are let out as the old black man; complete with his meal, lays back in his seat on the dirty couch.  Shortly after he breathes deep, garners his last strength of the day and stands up.

EXIT STAGE RIGHT

SCENE [STAGE LEFT]

MAN IN CAP AND GOWN SITTING IN CHAIR FUMBLING WITH HIS HAND IN HIS POCKET.  PULLS OUT TINY BOX, INSPECTS IT AND PUTS IT BACK.  REPEATING THE PROCESS SOON AFTER.

MAN TURNS TO THE AUDIENCE AND APPROACHES:

SOLILOQUY:  “Some might say I have been blessed with many small miracles, others would simply refer to it as good luck.  What I did not realize was that all my miracles, my good fortune, and ultimately my journey had been orchestrated by that kindly old black man.
“Actually, as I reflect on my incredible journey and the blessings I have received, he really was not all that kindly.  The school janitor was reclusive and rarely interacted with the students.  When he did it was most often in short grunts or impatient hand gestures.  The old black janitor simply did his job and thus was the target of ridicule by some of the students.  They made up stories, called him names, and even played pranks on him.  Most of the students just ignored him, some were mean.
“Even though my group of friends were in the mean crowd, I treated most of those uncomfortable situations with apathy.  It was not that I had a sense of injustice or empathized with the man, I just did not care.”

CHECKS POCKET, PULLS OUT INSPECTS AND RETURNS THE BOX:

RETURNING TO AUDIENCE:  “I had often noticed slight glances from the man or felt his glare from across the hallways and classrooms, but I never really thought much about it.”

LONG PAUSE IN REFLECTION:

TOM:  “When I was younger, I was often bullied.  The other kids would beat me up and take my sneakers, rob me of my backpack, or relieve me of my lunch money.  I would return to my locker later to find my returned sneakers, backpack, or a few dollar bills.  The only other person with access to the lockers was the janitor.  I knew this but never really cared to put two-and-two together.
“Eventually I would come to find answer keys or small gifts.  For example I had taken a liking to a certain girl.  After confessing to a friend in the hallway that I liked her but did not have the confidence to ask her on a date, I returned to my locker to find a note signed by her and with her phone number on it.  Score.
“I was doing well in school.  I excelled in basketball thanks to the playbooks from the competition inexplicably placed in my locker.  I was the most popular kid in school and a rousing success.  Over the years I had gotten used to the gifts.  I never questioned where they came from.  In fact, I had come to expect them.  I never demanded them and if I never received another, I would be content.  But they sustained me and I had grown atrophic to my dependence on them: on the old black janitor.”

SCENE [STAGE RIGHT]

SEVERAL PEOPLE ARE SITTING IN A ROW OF CHAIRS.  CLOSEST ARE AN OLDER COUPLE, (TOM’S PARENTS), AND A YOUNG WOMAN, (TOM’S GIRLFRIEND).  THEY ARE PAYING ATTENTION TO THE GRADUATION CEREMONY BEHIND TOM.

TOM ACKNOWLEDGES HIS FAMILY, CHECKS POCKET, PULLS OUT INSPECTS AND RETURNS THE BOX, CONTINUES SOLILOQUY:  “The old black janitor had taken on my cause from a young age.  He assumed an obsession with making me successful.  An outsider might look at the situation and argue that the janitor had “adopted” me and wanted to propagate my achievements to amend his own failures.  His motives notwithstanding, I was living a life served to me on a platter.  
“Near high school graduation, the old black janitor had somehow procured my acceptance at a top university that happened to be only a few cities over.  I had not even considered applying to such a prestigious school, but the application had already been filled out; along with cash for the application fee and a stamped envelope, and was sitting in my locker awaiting my signature.  My top grades and perfect SAT score, courtesy of the old black janitor, helped land me in the college I dared not dream about only months prior.
“The old black janitor followed.
“I recognized him about the school and on into medical school; but like the mole on your face I simply accepted and overlooked it.  My fortune has continued until this very day; graduation day.”

CHECKS POCKET, PULLS OUT INSPECTS AND RETURNS THE BOX.  

GRADUATION SPEAKER:  “Doctor Thomas Jacobs.” 

AUDIENCE APPLAUDS.

TOM WALKS STAGE LEFT TO SPEAKER AND TAKES THE DIPLOMA.  AUDIENCE CONTINUES APPLAUSE.  TOM RAISES FISTS IN VICTORY POSE, THEN WALKS OVER HIS GIRLFRIEND.  HE KNEELS ON ONE KNEE AND PRESENTS TO BOX WITH THE RING.  EXCITED SHE SHOUTS ‘YES!’ AND EVERYONE STANDS TO GUSH OVER THE  COUPLE.

TOM’S FATHER WALKS STAGE LEFT.  CURTAIN DRAWS ON STAGE RIGHT.

TOM’S FATHER: “I could not be any prouder.  My son is living a story-book life.  After all these years I will get to see my only son become the embodiment of my life’s ambitions.”

REFLECTING PAUSE

CONTINUES:  “In what seems like a lifetime ago, I was a privileged youth.  My father was wealthy, but I deeply envied those who seemed to have all the luck.  Those that did not seem to have to study hard to make good grades, those who got the girls, scored the touchdowns, and had lots of friends.  My envy manifested in rage.  I would molest and malign the weaker kids.  I later turned that aggression into a successful career as an attorney.  I preyed on the weak and continued to molest and malign the opposition through the legal system.”

GUILTY PAUSE

CONTINUES:  “My aggression turned to guilt and when Tom was born.  I prayed that my son’s life would be more peaceful and beneficial to the world.  And today, that prayer was answered.  My son is the consummation of my dreams.  Through apathy, Tom had not negatively affected anyone or made any enemies as I had.  Later tonight; unbeknownst to Tom, I plan on giving him an all-expenses paid trip to Fiji for him and his betrothed as an engagement gift.  The plan is to meet Tom in the study and hand him the plane tickets in some sort of passing the torch / coming of age ceremonial.”

TOM’S FATHERS MOTIONS TO STAGE RIGHT.  HE WALKS ACROSS THE STAGE AS THE CURTAIN IS PULLED BACK HALFWAY.  TOM’S MOTHER AND FIANCÉE ARE LAYING ON THE FLOOR IN A BLOODY POOL. TOM’S FATHER RUSHES OVER TO THEM AND DROPS TO HIS KNEES.  

A LONG DRAMATIC PAUSE AS HE STRUGGLES FOR HIS BREATH AND DRY HEAVES.

HIS HEAD BECOMES TOO HEAVY TO LIFT AS THE DEPRESSION SWEEPS OVER HIM.  SPINNING HIS HEAD AROUND HE LOOKS RIGHT AS THE CURTAIN IS PULLED BACK THE REST OF THE WAY.  TOM IS UNCONSCIOUS AND HANGING FROM A RAFTER.  THE OLD BLACK JANITOR IS ON A LADDER STRINGING HIM UP.

TOM’S FATHER BLINKS TRYING TO ADJUST HIS VISION, STUNNED AT WHAT HE IS WATCHING.  AT THAT MOMENT, THE OLD BLACK JANITOR RELEASES THE ROPE AND TOMS FALLS TWO FEET TO THE END.  A BRUTAL JERK SNAPS HIS NECK AND WITH A TWITCH, TOM DIES.

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR CLIMBS DOWN THE LADDER, SLOWLY PUTS THE LADDER OFF STAGE AND RETURNS TO INSPECT HIS WORK.

AFTER A PAUSE, HE ACKNOWLEDGES TOM’S FATHER:  “Why?”  PAUSE:  “Why?  You want to know why?  I’ll tell you why.  You don’t remember me.  That’s why.”

TOM’S FATHER CAN NOT PROCESS IT ALL.  HE IS TOO WEAK TO RESPOND OR EVEN MOVE.  HIS EYES DART BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN HIS LOVED ONES.  HE IS OVERCOME.

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR:  “You don’t remember me because you are a selfish, evil, and racist jerk who walks all over people and uses them for your own sordid ends.”

TOM’S FATHER LOOKS UPON THE OLD BLACK JANITOR WITH CONFUSION AND DESPAIR.

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR:  “You don’t remember me because back in grade school you beat up a little black kid and kicked me while I was down.  You told me that I would never amount to anything and I was doomed to a future of cleaning the defilement of the successful.”

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR STARTS PACING.  WITH INCREASING VOLUME:  You don’t remember me because you never bothered to know who I was.  You never made eye contact, and you robbed me of my future.  You don’t know me because you took my hopes and dreams and it meant nothing to you.”

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR WALKS OVER TO TOM’S FATHER AND RAISES A GUN TO HIS HEAD.

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR:  “You don’t know me because I was just ant to you.  And you gathered me up and crushed me in an insignificant moment of entertainment for you.”

THE INEVITABLE ARRIVES.

THE OLD BLACK JANITOR:  “What you took from me that day I multiplied in you and will now take back.  I made everything Tom has become.  I softened your heart and I made you vulnerable so that you can know and feel the pain ten fold over that which you made in me.
“My name is Vengeance and you will NEVER know me!”

BANG

END






Wednesday, May 11, 2011

A Cool Glass of Water











With the death of Osama bin Laden the world and especially America has taken a step back and appropriately began to ask some important and introspective questions.  "Is the war on terror over?"  "Should we leave Afghanistan?"  "Are we prompting more attacks?"  "What are Truthers, Birthers, or Deathers?"  Or, "Should our phones be tracking our movements?"  To say the least it has been an interesting few weeks as the nation struggles to come to grips with these questions.  And with some long overdue harmony over the bin Laden raid the issues have not been as divisive or malicious lately.  Right now the two sides have taken a respite from the rhetoric and there is a calm like that cool glass of water after working outside in the heat.  You take a drink, plop down in a chair, congratulate yourself on a job well done and relax before you have to get up again and start the clean up process.  Right now America is finishing up their water and convincing themselves it is time to get back to the madness before it gets too late; after all, the election is only eighteen months away.

So before we get back to work let us reflect on the respite and properly address an issue that came up last week.

The morning after the bin Laden raid a pre-coffee debate ensued over the appropriateness of the celebration over the man's death.  One person compared it to the televised celebrations from Afghanistan when the American journalist was killed.  Another took the moral stance that one should not celebrate the death of another human.  And yet another held that it was not the death that was being celebrated in the streets of D.C. and Times Square but an outpouring of pent-up emotion stored up over the past decade.  Be it fear, terror, anger, sadness, anxiety, frustration, or feelings of injustice; in the moment we found out the Osama was dead we could all finally release our baggage.  In that moment our burdens were lifted and we could relax and let down our guard, plop down on the couch and congratulate ourselves.  And you could probably tell which side of the argument we were on.  But the question remained; was it appropriate to celebrate as a direct result of a man's death regardless of motivation?  Well, let us ask the opposite.  Is it appropriate to mourn when a person dies?  Certainly it is a societal expectation, but it is not required or mandated.

Mourning is a deeply personal coping mechanism that cannot be taught or influenced that provides an individual a way to deal with the feelings and emotions stirred up in the loss of someone or something special.  In the past month we at II have experienced some personal tragedies and have had a first hand look at mourning.  One of our writer's friends lost his father a few weeks ago.  That man's wife lost her closest grandmother.  Their mutual friend lost his caretaker grandmother just days ago.  And the writer's aunt is being lost to dementia from a few recent strokes and taking the health of her loving husband with her.  And we have noted how each of the survivors have made their own grieving style.  The writer's friend wore all black clothing for two weeks and needed to socialize with other people while his wife needed solitude.  When our writer lost his father as a nine year old boy friends and family became afraid because his grieving was private.  It is not normal for a child to not cry when he loses his father and hero.  And therein is the keyword: normal.  We all recognize that people grieve in different ways, but there are certain characteristics that have come to be expected during the process like sadness, depression, quietude, or solemness.  But is celebration far fetched?

Our writer had a good friend in college named Robertson McQuilkin.  The man was in his eighties when they met and his wife had been suffering from decades of degenerative Alzheimer's.  McQuilkin's house was a small and humble home on the corner of a well traveled street.  On the days when his wife would recognize him he would fly a flag out on the front of the house to signify that he was having a good day.  When visited, he would leave his wife in the bedroom and close the door in order to give his full attention to his guests.  When talking with him you would never tell if his mind was wondering because he dedicated himself to the situation or conversation at hand.  He was a rare breed of man that would make you feel special and loved even if he did not know you.  So it was easy to empathize with him and his situation with his wife.  He dedicated the last decades of her life tending to her every need and loving her wholeheartedly.  Even now it is difficult to hold back the emotions of sadness and grief at his Sisyphian struggle.  And as you can imagine in the latter days, the flag flew less and less.  However when she finally died there was little grief and almost non-existent sadness.  In truth there was a collective release of emotion as this both man and woman were freed from their crushing and overwhelming afflictions.  There was the deliverance of a woman whose millstone had been lifted and of a man whose albatross had been cut away.  The celebration that followed her death was altogether cleansing, healing, mourning, and very appropriate.  It was the same sort of rejoicing the world experienced when Mandela was released and the very same when bin Laden was killed.

Two weeks ago we wrote a hurried essay as the southern storms that brought several tornadoes bore down on II headquarters.  We compared the news coverage of the severe weather to the royal wedding of William and Catherine.  The piece was not good enough to publish but the point was that just as we could set aside the non-essentials and inwardly reflect while being engrossed in the storm coverage, so should we let ourselves be caught up in the fantasy of the marriage between the Prince and the pauper girl.  Not everything in life demands critical analysis or commentary.  Just relax and enjoy.

And from this relaxation period the world has been able to refocus and begin to ask some genuine questions.  So it is only befitting that we close with with some words from an eloquent, pro-revolution, black panther associated, Muslim from Chicago, and honorary Impudent Iconoclast; Wasalu Muhammad Jaco.

The official song of The Impudent Iconoclast:


"It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

"I really think the war on terror is a bunch of bullshit
Just a poor excuse for you to use up all your bullets
How much money does it take to really make a full clip
9/11 building 7 did they really pull it
And a bunch of other cover ups
Your childs future was the first to go with budget cuts
If you think that hurts then, wait here comes the uppercut
The school was garbage in the first place, that's on the up and up
Keep you at the bottom but tease you with the uppercrust
You get it then they move you so you never keeping up enough
If you turn on TV all you see’s a bunch of “what the fucks”
Dude is dating so and so blabbering bout such and such
And that ain't Jersey Shore, homie that's the news
And these the same people that supposed to be telling us the truth
Limbaugh is a racist, Glenn Beck is a racist
Gaza strip was getting bombed, Obama didn’t say shit
That's why I ain't vote for him, next one either
I’ma part of the problem, my problem is I’m peaceful
And I believe in the people.

"It’s so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said

"Now you can say it ain't our fault if we never heard it
But if we know better than we probably deserve it
Jihad is not a holy war, wheres that in the worship?
Murdering is not Islam!
And you are not observant
And you are not a muslim
Israel don’t take my side cause look how far you’ve pushed them
Walk with me into the ghetto, this where all the Kush went
Complain about the liquor store but what you drinking liquor for?
Complain about the gloom but when’d you pick a broom up?
Just listening to Pac ain't gone make it stop
A rebel in your thoughts, ain't gon make it halt
If you don’t become an actor you’ll never be a factor
Pills with million side effects
Take em when the pains felt
Wash them down with Diet soda!
Killin off your brain cells
Crooked banks around the World
Would gladly give a loan today
So if you ever miss payment
They can take your home away!

"It’s so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said, never said
I can’t take back the words I never said

"I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion that's why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through

"It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said."